My favorite movie is the dystopian science fiction movie “Blade Runner“. In the climax of the movie the protagonist Rick Deckard, is in an epic fight with a genetically engineered android Roy Batty. Roy is stronger and faster than Deckard and as Roy pursues Deckard, he toys with him like a cat does with a mouse. In his attempt to get away, Deckard tries to jump from one rain slick rooftop to another, only to slip and end up hanging from a girder. Roy, easily jumps across and stands over Deckard mockingly as he watches Deckard’s fingers slip one by one from the girder. When the last one slips, Deckard will plunge to his death.
At the last moment, when Deckard’s last two fingers slip from the girder, Roy grabs Deckard’s wrist and hoists him onto the rooftop. A stunned Deckard doesn’t know whether to flee or to fight his superhuman opponent. Roy sits down next to Deckard holding a live dove he caught on the rooftop. Roy, played brilliantly by Rutger Hauer, launches into this wonderful soliloquy.
I’ve seen things you people wouldn’t believe. Attack ships on fire off the shoulder of Orion. I watched C beams glitter in the dark near the Tannhauser Gate. All those moments will be lost in time, like tears in rain. Time to die.” – Roy Batty (Rutger Hauer), Blade Runner
We then see Roy’s head slump forward and watch as the dove, now freed from Roy’s grasp, flies upward towards the sky. One version of the movie has a narration that explains that in the final moments of his life, Roy saw all life as too precious to be lost. Whatever Roy’s reason for not allowing Deckard to die, we see in his final soliloquy, his pain over knowing that all the great events he was a witness to during his lifetime would now be lost in time “like tears in rain”.
I’ve been thinking a lot about legacy lately. I wonder what kind of legacy I will leave when life slips from my grasp? James the brother of Jesus says:
What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. – James 4:14 ESV
According to James, the chill wind of death could blow at any moment and our life would swirl like a mist and vanish. What would I leave behind? Would anything I have done make a difference to anyone? Or would they all be like those moments that Roy Batty mourned over?
I think this is a pretty common fear, especially for men.
It is my belief that all the stupid behavior we see some men engage in about the time they hit middle age is due to their realization that the end of their life on earth is on the horizon and they don’t have much to show for it. They go out a buy a Harley in the hopes that this will make them seem dangerous and wild and not really a soft, middle aged man who fears irrelevance more than death. They walk out on their wife and kids in the vain hope that their cavorting with another woman will make them feel alive and distract them from the fact that they are moving ever closer towards death.
In his sermon today, my pastor spoke about legacy. He challenged us fathers to leave behind a godly legacy for our families. The legacy that will last are the things you pass on to your children. That shiny new toy you buy yourself today will, before you realize it, end up on a trash heap. But a godly legacy will last forever. What is your legacy going to be? How will you be remembered?
Shalom,
Scott D